I’ve been an artist all my life. In high school, my notebooks were littered with doodles, often garnering more disdain from my teachers claiming I wasn’t paying attention than accolades for their creativity. In 2001, one of my sculptures was selected to be in a national juried show in Chicago, and that might be my biggest artistic achievement. But in my years of teaching my art had been shoved aside, only doing what was necessary for classroom visual aids.
In the past year I’ve begun painting again, and have been experimenting with watercolors. I’ve built up a portfolio of my abstract pieces. And, feeling the need to get into the art community, I made an appointment to speak to a gallery owner and show him my work.
When I got there, he wasn’t there. His assistant was, and it was his assistant who reviewed my work. During this time he seemed unimpressed, although from seeing other works in the gallery it was like nothing he had there. His comments were:
Psychedelic, too busy, too structured, work larger, try a colored background and blending the colors
And he showed me other watercolor examples in the shop to back up his comments- which was akin to comparing apples and oranges as they were completely different styles!
Realizing he didn’t like my work, I thanked him for looking and the suggestions and quickly made my way out of there. Although he did say that it was just one man’s opinion, it was still disheartening.
If the demons in my head had been talking a bit stronger that day, maybe they would have eaten away at me. Maybe they would have nagged me to give up because my work sucks and no one will like it. But the demons voices were quiet that day, and I shook them off and told myself that what he said was right.
It *was* one person’s opinion.
And maybe there’s 100 others like it. But then there will be the other 100 who will enjoy my work and support it. So I left with my head held high, because I did something I never thought I would do. I put myself out there. I took the plunge.